Ever since I started working for my dad at Samaritan’s Purse and The Billy Graham Evangelistic Association, I have battled the Lord with my insecurities.
I’ve written previously about how I feel inadequate to serve the Lord. I am not a theologian, I didn’t graduate from seminary, I barely attended Awanas growing up, and like I’ve said before, Graham’s are not born with the Bible memorized. I’m just an average girl who loves her Lord and Savior and wants to serve Him in everything she does. But I also happen to be a girl who is surrounded by pretty incredible teachers and communicators of the Gospel. (And yes, I do realize that is probably an understatement.)
But there’s the label communicator—a fear of mine. And believe it or not, I did graduate college with a degree in Communications.
Ongoing jokes about how I mix up words are an every day occurrence in our household. My husband picks on me about my word choices all the time, and I constantly leave out words. So, why would the Lord choose me to be a communicator of His word?
I have been pleading with the Lord—No, not me! I am not an eloquent writer or speaker. I am not a smooth talker. I have a hard time getting my point across. Please do not ask me to do this, Lord!
As I was reading through Exodus a few weeks ago, I realized for the first time that even Moses had the same feelings. He said the same exact words I’ve said! Moses was insecure? Really? Yes, he was. And it didn’t matter, because the Lord chose him.
Moses said to the LORD, “O Lord, I have never been eloquent, neither in the past nor since you have spoken to your servant. I am slow of speech and tongue.”
The LORD said to him, “Who gave man his mouth? Who makes him deaf or mute? Who gives him sight or makes him blind? Is it not I, the LORD? Now go; I will help you speak and will teach you what to say.” Exodus 4:10-13
The Lord only commands us to go and speak the truth. He doesn’t ask us to be eloquent or beautiful. He’ll take care of that part, because He promises to help us. He doesn’t expect anything from us other than obedience to Him. So when He commands you to do something, trust Him.
Believe in yourself, because He believes in you enough to choose you.
What has God chosen you to do today?