Must Survive Mental Chaos


That’s the word I would use to describe my life lately.  I wake up thinking about things I need to get done and go to bed thinking of everything I didn’t accomplish—which now overflows to my list for tomorrow.

Since I started working full time, I’ve tried to find the perfect routine to balance being a housewife and doing my job.  But I ‘ll fill you in on a little secret: there is no perfect routine!  It must have been this young and naïve brain of mine leading me to believe such a thing exists.  And while working from home seems Fabulouso (which is what I mop my floors with, when I’m in wife mode), it’s really just one big distraction!

Here is a sample of my daily mental chaos:

Nala, coffee, devotions, email, Twitter, laundry, bills, (oops, I forgot, because our phones were turned off), take chicken out of freezer, oh I’m late for my conference call. I need to make the bed, and dust that coffee table, but not now, have to focus on writing! Nala needs to go out again! Did I finalize everything for our trip?  Gotta pack the bags and clean the house before we leave. I’ll do a few loads of laundry between calls.  Squeeze in a workout sometime! I need to run to the grocery store, post office, and gas station.  Then I need reply to emails. Oh it is dinnertime already, and then clean-up time.  Now I need to put away the clothes, which are still piled where I tossed them on the bed.  Sit down for a second on the couch. Did I check the news today to see what is going on in our world?  Finally, Corey and I prop our feet up and catch up on DVR. (Applause to the working moms!)

And before I know it, the day is over and I am exhausted. This is about the time I realize I didn’t spend any time with the only one who knows and cares about all of my chaos— Jesus.

Yes, devotions were quickly thrown in earlier, but did I really take time to get to know Him? Did I take time to be still and quiet before Him?  Did I take the time to open up before Him?

We can’t prevent the chaos, but we can invest time with the one who can help us survive it.

I encourage you to take time today to be still, to be quiet, to be alone before for the Lord.  Study his Word, because he will reveal himself in divine ways on the days you need it the most.

In a recent interview, my grandfather was asked what he would change about his life. He simply replied, “I would have read and studied the Bible more.”